Reese Jaclyn Goslee

Reese Jaclyn Goslee
Blue Eyed Beauty

Friday, February 20, 2009

11 months ...Since you've been gone


Oh, beautiful baby girl. I can't believe it has been 11 months since you left mommy and daddy. These 11 months have been indescribable. The pain and the heartache is something that I never thought I would feel. I am sorry I have not been on here much, I guess I just really have been in the pit. Missing you so much and being so angry that I just can't seem to put it into words without feeling like I might upset someone. Not really sure why I would care, unless they have been though what your mommy, daddy, sister and brother have been through they would never really understand anyway.

Valentine's Day was really heard for me. Not really sure why, I guess because I felt like it was the last big holiday that you were around for. I know your were here for St. Patty's Day but it was the next day that our world was shattered. The night before Valentine's Day, mommy just couldn't fall asleep....I ended up crying myself to sleep. All I could think about was you in that cute Valentine's outfit that I had bought you and about the one I foolishly bought you to wear this year. It is still hanging in you closet with the tags on it. I don't think I will ever be able to do that again. I mean buying an outfit for one of your siblings a whole year in advance; all that innocence is gone. I really liked that bubble that I lived in, where everything was perfect and good. I don't think I will ever be back in that bubble again.

Mommy, Daddy and Noah did get to see your baby sister today. We went for another ultrasound. We had the technician double check to make sure she was a girl... she is. She was in there eating her hand. It was really cute.... Mommy really needs these next 9 weeks to go by fast. Reese please keep her safe, and Madelyn and Noah. I know I ask you that all the time, but I really need you to help me out with that. I guess that's it for now. I love you soo much pretty and I miss you even more. Keep smiling down on us with those gorgeous baby blues!

I'll be back soon, I promise!!! I love you Reesie!

Love, Mommy

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Hey Reese,

Im speechless. Really. I just read your mommy's blog she left and it just breaks my heart all over again. Im so angry this happened to such a wonderful family. While all the crooks and bad people in this world live, you had to go to heaven. I just do not understand it one little bit.

I babysat my next door neighbors new baby girl, her name is Isabella. I was sooo nervous. I sat there and watched her breath for like 5 hours!

My heart aches so much for the pain your mommy and daddy and brother and sister have had to endure. There is no justifiable reason for any of it.

Please give them the strength to get through their days! And keep havin fun up there with all your angel friends. I think of you everyday and the time we spent together. I will forever treasure those moments. I miss you so much.

You will NEVER- EVER be forgotten. I will think, talk, and pray for you and your family everyday for the rest of my life. And SIDS will be cured and parents worries can be put to rest! This needs to END!

I'll be up to visit tomorrow to give you a little somethin and have a little talk..

Love and miss you Reesie Cup!
your babysitter,
Kristen