Well baby girl. You are 9 months old today. 9 months old and not in my arms. You haven't been in my arms for a 142 days. It have been the most horrible 142 days of my life. I never knew I could feel this empty and sad. We didn't deserve to feel this way or deserve to go through a tragedy this great.
Mommy, Daddy, Maddy and Noah just got home from the beach. We went to North Wildwood for a week. It was very very hard to be there without you. Everywhere I looked I saw babies and all I could think of was you. I wondered constantly how old they were, I just wanted to know if they were near your age. I just came thinking about how big you would be or how much hair you would have. Your smile and those eyes, those beautiful blue eyes. You would have been the most beautiful baby on the whole beach, in all of Jersey. I still have all your beach stuff hanging in you closet. Your cute little tankini, your terrycloth jacket, and your sunhats. This is just not fair!!! I could just SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why, why were you taken from us. I just want you to come back to us so bad!! I just want to wake from this horrible nightmare.
I miss you and I love you so much Reese. I'll be back later babygirl. Love, Mommy
