18 months Old

Hi Pretty...yesterday you were 18 months old. I guess you still are even though you are up in heaven and not Down here this is. I now daddy told you the good news about you baby sister, oh Reese she is beautiful. Thank you so much for watching out for her and getting her to mommy and daddy safe and sound. I need you to continue to keep your big sister and brother and now you new little sister safe and sound with mommy and daddy. I know you will do a great job, you are the most beautiful angel in heaven.

Mommy misses you sooo much. I went to visit you yesterday and I know I just cried but I can't help it. You should be here with us walking all over, poking your new little sister, running around chasing your big sister and brother and getting into everything in site! I'm not really sure why mommy and daddy where the ones picked to suffer like this and I know I will never know but it doesn't make me question it any less or be any less angry. Reese I get so angry!!! I just want to stop feeling so alone.

I'm sorry I have been away for soo long. I just feel like I get so upset when I write to you and I feel like I don't really say anything very positive. I will try and get better at that, I promise!!

Well, I gotta go blue eyes, but I be back soon I promise!!!! I love you Reesie, and I miss you even more!!! Love, Mommy

Congrats Reesie Cup...You are a Big Sister!

Reesie Cup,

Hey baby girl...we wanted to write to tell you that you are now a big sister to Lily Reese. She is beautiful and has blue eyes like you...we will see if they stay that way. She was born last Sunday and was 9lbs, 6 oz and 21.5" long. You were definitely a peanut compared to her. I was at the cemetary the other day to give you the great news as well. It is definitely very exciting but bittersweet as well. We wish you were here with us.

We are all getting ready for your 1st Benefit/Beef and Beer on June 6th. It is alot of planning but we are really excited to be doing it to remember you and try to help End SIDS. Everyone has been really nice and helping out alot with planning the whole event. We love you so much and you will never be forgotten. I don't think it has gotten any easier for us but we are trying to get through each and every day. I am sure you are looking down on your little sis and making sure that we are all okay. Well, I love you little lady and I will be up to see you either today or tomorrow. Keep smiling(:

--Love, Daddy--