Reese,
I just wanted to write to say Merry Christmas! It was definitely not the same without you; the holidays have been very difficult for all of us. There was a Children's Memorial Service at CHOP before Christmas that we all went to for you. That was not fun but it was nice to remember all the children who were taken too soon.
We visited you at the cemetary on Christmas Eve and then on Christmas as well. We left you flowers and there was also alot of other things left for you as well, including 2 Christmas trees, balloons, a cross & some ornaments. We all miss you so much. Santa brought you 2 presents that we will be keeping in your room. You also got a lady bug blanket which is nice. I just wanted to say Merry Christmas and tell you how much we think about you and how much we love & miss you. I will write again very soon and will be up to visit you tomorrow! I love you Reesie Cup!!!
--Love Daddy--
3 comments:
Babygirl,
It just doesn't get any easier. We all missed you sooo very much on Christmas. There is no reason why you shouldn't have been here with us talking around and smiling. I just feel like my anger has not subsided and right now I don't feel like it ever will. Like Daddy said Santa brought you two christmas presents this year, Mommy put them up in your room. Your room is getting pretty crowded, I think we are going to have to build an addition so there is room for all of us, including your new sibling. Daddy will figure it all out. He always does.
That's it for now gorgeous. I will be back later to talk . I love you!!! Love, Mommy
Hey..I miss you Reese! I'm So pissed off!!!(excuse my french) that you couldnt be with your family on Christmas..its just not fair. There is no justifiable reason for this. Why any healthy beautiful baby would be taken from their family. Nothing anyone says makes me feel any better..no reason they give me. And SIDS is no kind of answer..it makes no sense at all. This has torn me apart! And your mom and dad- they need you so much Reese! Be with them in your own way..I know you will. Sorry I got a little upset..happens a lot these days.
Merry Christmas..
Love you Reesie Cup.
your babysitter, Kristen <3
Dear Reese,
I now that I never had the pleasure of meeting you, but I think about you EVERY single day! I also think of Mommy, Daddy, Maddie and Noah and your new brother or sister that is on it's way and say a little prayer for them that they will be at least ok and that you can find ways to visit them and show them that you are always around! I also want you to know that your life has affected me profoundly. Your beauty and the impact that your little life has had on me and so may others is truly amazing. The fact that one person can be so loved is so beautiful and you are so blessed. I just can't seem to understand why this has happened. There is no answer to this that is ever going to satisfy me or be good enough to explain why you had to become an angel in heaven so quickly. Your Mommy and Daddy are just such amazing people, they are wonderful parents and my heart truly aches EVERY SINGLE DAY that they had to lose you, it is one of the most horrifying and unfair things that I could ever imagine. I love your whole family so much, we had so many great times together and I am so devistated that you were taken from them so quickly. Why something like this would happen to such great people is beyond me or any explanation, I know we will never ever understand it, but someday, when we meet again, maybe you will be able to help it all make sense to us! I also want you to know that I am so happy that I dreamed about you and you told me you were okay. In my dream your whole family was there and you looked so cute in Christmas jammies, I left your Mommy and message and told her you said you were ok and what you looked like. I also can't believe it, but I think you showed up at my work on Sunday night, how amazing! I can't find any other explantion for how a ladybug landed in the ICU than to tell myself it was you, especially because I was talking about you at the same time it showed up!!!! Thank you for choosing to come visit me, I am so honored and blessed! Well, for now I think I have gotten a lot off of my mind, but I just want you to know that I think of you, Mommy, Daddy, Noah, Maddie and the newest little Goslee everyday, and everyday my heart aches for all of you and the fact that you can't be together. I look and Mikey everyday and think that I could never imagine the pain and the horror that you all must live through everyday, but I also know that there are some pretty amazing angels, (including yourself) that you get to hang out with and I know they will watch over you! The same way I know you all watch over us! Hugs and kisses to you until I see you again! xxooxxoo
Love always,
Kristy
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