Reese,
I just wanted to write to say Happy New Year! The holidays were so tough for us but we got through them okay with Maddy & Noah here. I am just speechless right now and cannot possibly describe what we are going through - about 9 1/2 months later...it definitely has not gotten any easier. I still cannot believe that this has happened to you and us. It will not ever make sense. I have been talking to people about your case to get different viewpoints. There is a SIDS Specialist in San Diego who is going to look at your case to see if anything was missed -- they are in the process of doing a SIDS Research study. We will see, but obviously nothing will (physically) bring you back to us. I am just hoping it will in some way help find an answer for what SIDS is. It is just so hard because I don't know if we'll ever have closure. You were taken for absolutely no reason at all. You are so loved by everyone and will never be forgotten. It has been so hard to start a new year without you. Not fun at all. Alot of people we don't even know have been contacting me & Mommy who have also lost babies to SIDS so hopefully that will help us...knowing that other people can relate to what we are going through.
On a brighter note, Mommy is 24 weeks pregnant today and her due date is April 28th. We are excited and nervous at the same time. It is definitely bittersweet without you here to meet your soon-to-be new brother or sister. The baby will be his or her own person and no one can ever take your place. We are curious to see who sheor he will look like. We will keep you in the loop for sure. Alright Reese, I just wanted to get some things off my chest. Again, Happy New Year! I love you and miss you and will write again soon.
--Love Daddy--
